My Nightmare..

When will this nightmare end?
when will my fears subside leaving only the strong part behind?
why do I fall back on my tears when I vow not to revisit the pain
when I vow not to feel the pain.

I see the face.. I see the fist I see the hand.. I feel the pain
I cringe...
I cry...

I want to die

but what if I submit to this pain this fear?
what is the point of smilling ever again?
what is the point I stand up today?
when the morrow my fears swallow me whole again

I am in despair, I am in the dark
fumbling constantly trying for the light

I see the light I see the path but I can't reach it
I cant reach it

show me the way
hold my hand...